About AmandaFor most of my life, I looked like someone who had it together.
I didn't. But I got very good at making it look that way, which, as it turns out, is excellent training for understanding how survival works.
The beforeThere's a specific moment I remember.
I was standing on the Nike campus in Portland during a presentation where the Director of Nike Running was questioning why my team and I had chosen to photograph a particular shoe on a particular grain of wood. Not the shoe. The wood.
And I remember thinking:
What the f*ck am I doing with my life?
It wasn't a dramatic moment.Nothing exploded. I didn't quit my job. The whole thing just felt absurd.
At the time, I'd spent over a decade in advertising working with some of the world's biggest brands. I was also DJing warehouse parties and underground events. On weekends, I was running competitively.
From the outside, my life looked exciting, creative, and successful.
The whole time, there was this feeling I couldn't shake that I was meant to be doing something else. I didn't know what. I just knew it wasn't spending my life helping people buy things they didn't need on the internet.
Meanwhile, I kept getting better at being who other people needed me to be. I could usually tell when something was wrong before anyone said anything. People told me things they didn't tell other people. I seemed to know what was needed in a room before it was spoken.
Understanding myself was another story entirely.
For over a decade, I was paid to understand people. To identify patterns. To figure out why people do what they do. To look beneath what someone says and understand what is actually driving their behaviour. At the time, I thought I was learning advertising. Looking back, I think I was learning how to see.
Running competitively taught me how to override my body. I got very good at pushing through exhaustion, discomfort, and signals that something wasn't right.
A few years later, I got sober. That was the beginning of everything. Once I stopped escaping myself, there was nowhere left to go. For the first time, I could feel how tired I actually was. Grief I'd spent years staying ahead of started catching up to me.
I also had to learn how to dance without the numbing effect and liquid courage of alcohol. That turned out to be far more revealing than I expected.
The UnravelingThe spiritual awakening came later.
At first, I thought I was losing my mind.
I couldn't talk about what was happening to me in ways that sounded reasonable enough not to alarm people. I started having experiences I couldn't explain.
I spent a long time hoping there was another explanation.
I started learning Reiki because I was trying to understand what was happening to me. During my very first practice session, I spontaneously delivered a mediumship reading from my practice partner's recently deceased father, including a reference to the last conversation they'd ever had, which happened to be about the health benefits of kale. Neither of us could explain it. I discovered that day that I can speak to spirit, and my life hasn't been the same since.
What followed was a period of profound disorientation. The life I had built no longer made sense, but I didn't yet know what was supposed to replace it. At one point I moved into a van in the forest with my dog because I genuinely did not know how to exist inside the reality I had built my life around. That period broke apart almost everything I thought I knew about myself.
It also gave me my life back.
A lot more people are having these experiences than most people realize. They're just not talking about them.
Why I See the Way I DoYears later, I found out my body had been compensating for something for my entire life.
A childhood jaw injury had created cascading structural dysfunction that nobody had caught for decades. My eyes didn't work properly together. My nervous system adapted by orienting through pattern recognition, emotional atmospheres, tension, subtle shifts, and information most people weren't paying attention to.
For years, I thought that sensitivity was simply part of my personality. Then I realized it had also been an adaptation. Part of it was intuition. Part of it was adaptation. Part of it was simply the way I'm wired. I was constantly taking in information other people seemed to miss. I just didn't have language for it yet.
I became a seer because I couldn't see properly. My system found another way in.
The contradiction is the pointI'm Palestinian, Irish, and English.
Being Palestinian and Irish shaped how I understand this work. One lineage taught me that healing happens in relationship and community. The other taught me that there is more to this world than what can be measured and explained.
For years, I thought all the different parts of my life contradicted each other. The corporate career. The DJ. The sober woman. The athlete. The activist. The mystic. The part of me that wanted evidence. The part of me that kept having experiences it couldn't explain.
I spent a lot of time trying to make myself easier to understand.
Looking back, I think that was the mistake.
My life only started making sense when I stopped trying to reduce it to a single story.
It took me a long time to realize how much those lineages shaped the way I understand this work. My Palestinian side taught me that healing is never just individual. It happens in relationship, in community, and in the stories we carry together.
It also taught me that the personal and the political are never as separate as we're told they are. My Irish side left me fascinated by the unseen, the symbolic, and the things that don't always fit neatly into logic.
I don't think healing is ever just personal. It ripples through families, relationships, communities, and generations. Every time someone breaks a pattern, something changes not only for them but for the people around them. Every time someone reconnects with a part of themselves they abandoned in order to survive, that change reaches further than they realize.
That's why this work matters so much to me.
At its core, I'm interested in the same thing I've always been interested in: liberation. The freedom to become who you actually are without having to abandon yourself in the process. For yourself. For the people who come after you. And for the ones who didn't get to.
How I WorkMy body of work is a system of unconditioning.
The work is built on four pillars. All of them, every session.
I don't see you as a collection of symptoms. I see how your nervous system, energy, lineage, identity, and relationships interact with one another. We work the whole system because that's the only place change actually sticks.
At the time, I couldn't find anyone who could hold the complexity of what I was experiencing. The nervous system work was over here. The trauma work was somewhere else. The spiritual awakening was something I could barely talk about.
My experience wasn't separate. Most people's isn't. That's why this work moves across four pillars simultaneously — because that's the only way the change actually holds.
Nervous System & Somatics
Understanding how survival patterns live in the body and rebuilding safety, regulation, and capacity from the inside out. Insights that don't land in your nervous system don't stick.
Truth-Telling & Pattern Recognition
Seeing clearly what's actually running underneath coping mechanisms, conditioning, shame, and inherited survival strategies. Naming it without flinching.
Energetics & Frequency
Working with intuition, emotional energy, relational dynamics, ancestral patterns, and the unseen layers of human experience. Clearing what's not yours. Anchoring what is.
Reclamation & Rebuilding
Reconnecting with the parts of yourself you abandoned in order to survive. Creating a life that reflects who you actually are now, not who you had to be.
I created this work because it's the support I wish I had when my own life started coming apart.
“Amanda is deeply intuitive and has an extraordinary grasp of her innate skill set”
“She will meet you where you are, hold space for you, and listen without judgment. Her guidance, empathy, and reflections will help you go deep, uncover patterns, and create meaningful and lasting change. I highly recommend working with Amanda in the Reclamation container. It is a life-changing and life-saving experience.”
— Reclamation AlumniIf you're still readingYou're probably here because something in you already knows.
You've done the work and you're still hitting the same walls. You're in the middle of something that doesn't have a clean name yet. You want support that doesn't bypass your reality, your politics, or your lived experience. You want someone who's walked through fire and isn't performing the recovery.
You don't have to take as long as I did to figure this out. That's actually the whole point.
If any of this is landing, trust that. There's a place to start wherever you are right now.
Spiritual Training:Intuitive Collective Levels 1 & 2 — The Medium School
Usui Reiki Master Practitioner — Peacock Transformation
Mediumship Certification Training — The Medium School
Mediumship Foundations Levels 1 & 2 — The Oakbridge Institute
The Healer's Program — Zach Alexander
Trauma-Informed Space Holding — Katie Kurtz
The Key: Intuitive Healing & Transformation — Treenlight Healing
Energy Medicine Certification — School of Shamanic Artistry, led by Rami Abu-Sitta (in progress)
Peace Activation Foundations Training — Eva Dalak
Neurosomatic Coaching Certification — Ryan Hagan (in progress)
Academic & Professional:BA in Sociology & Political Science — University of Guelph
Graduate Diploma in Public Relations — Humber College
Certification in Colloquial Arabic — Hebrew University of Jerusalem
Fluent in English and French. Conversational Arabic.
If you're standing at a threshold, there are a few ways we can begin.
Whether you need immediate clarity or you're ready to go all the way in, there's a place to start that's right for where you are right now.